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The Killjoy

by Sarah Gross

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1.
Liar 04:20
I’ve been walking on my old road I’ve been tying up my laces just to go home I’ve been crying, I’ve been trying Reinvent myself each day to keep from dying I need aching, I need drama And I need to be more kinder to my karma I want missing, I want kissing I want you to be more talk, and I’ll be listen Chorus I need someone to talk to You’re looking at me like I’m freaking you out You need something to lean on And I’m pulling all the weight that you require All the stories I sell, yeah, you’re the buyer I’m a liar I’m a chaser I’m a red light I’m the thing that you keep hidden on your lampside I wish you would get out of your head I’m the reckless kind of wonderful in your bed Chorus I need someone to talk to You’re looking at me like I’m freaking you out You need something to lean on And I’m pulling all the weight that you require All the stories I sell, yeah, you’re the buyer I’m a liar (I’m a liar) Let me say what I need to say You can tell me that i’m getting crazy and If you say what i need to hear Then I’ll go back to my best friends, tell them “everything is grand” And I’ll go back to my parents, tell them they don’t understand And I’ll go back to my brothers, tell them “everything’s okay” Then I’ll come back home to you and hope you ask about my day Chorus I need someone to talk to You’re looking at me like I’m freaking you out You need something to lean on And I’m pulling all the weight that you require All the stories I sell, yeah, you’re the buyer Tell me everything is fine and I’ll retire I’m a liar
2.
State I'm In 03:40
Verse 1: Seven cousins, different cities Only one girl in the family All the boys say “God, you’re a bitch” And I, I got no problem with it Pre chorus: I’m not better than the boys I grew up with I mean I guess I get it, If you’re gonna fill your heads with girls, I speak the language Chorus: Cause I wanna kiss him and by him I mean her I got more issues than she deserves I wanna kiss her and by her I mean him It’s the least of my problems of the state I’m in It’s the least of my problems of the state I’m in Verse 2: Tell me father, what’s the scandal? Could the congregation handle? I’m a god sent son of a bitch And I, I got no problem with it Chorus: Cause I wanna kiss him and by him I mean her I got more issues than she deserves I wanna kiss her and by her I mean him It’s the least of my problems of the state I’m in It’s the least of my problems of the state I’m in Ohhh x 4 Bridge: I get scared that everything will change Once I let them truly know my name I get scared that they’ll consider me gone Wondering where they went wrong Chorus: Cause I wanna kiss him and by him I mean her I got more issues than she deserves I wanna kiss her and by her I mean him It’s the least of my problems of the state I’m in It’s the least of my problems of the state I’m in Ohhh, it’s the least of my problems It’s the least of my problems (Oooo state I’m in, Oooo state I’m in, Ooo state I’m in, Ooo state I’m in)
3.
It’s like snow in April; Not what I wanted, but it’s what I got now You could call me grateful Or you could call me up, tell me that you wish you’d take it back I’m gonna make it hurt I’m gonna look so good I’m putting in the work It’s gonna feel so good My god, just look at me go I might be on a roll High heels on a higher road and I am letting go Oh, I don’t need your sympathy, I just wanna party Broken doors on bathroom stalls and Rolling papers in the hall but I’m still feeling alright And my friend is crying down the hall But i dont seem to think of you at all cause I’m still having such a good time I’m gonna make it hurt (woah, woah, woah) I’m gonna look so good (woah, woah, woah) I’m putting in the work (woah, woah, woah) It’s gonna feel so good My god, just look at me go I might be on a roll High heels on a higher road and I am letting go Take back your bended knee All your bad poetry You won’t be seeing me, I am letting go Oh, I don’t need your sympathy, I just wanna party You can find me At a party In the kitchen With a girl that I just met We’re talking shit About her boyfriend Cause he’s good for nothing Find me At a party In the kitchen Telling stories about how I used to be so small Now I don’t know her at all Mmmm I don’t need your pity
4.
Brooklyn only rains when I'm around Monday is meant for bathing suits And getting lost in crowds But Tuesday comes and you can't see the empire from the clouds Brooklyn only rains when I'm around Brooklyn only rains when I'm in town I get caught chasing yesterdays and I run it to the ground Do you believe my denim jeans alleviate such drought? Brooklyn only rains when I'm around I like to wash the city off my skin Starts upon my lashes and trickles down my chin I'd like to find an end but I don't know where to begin I like to wash the city off my skin I got something up my sleeve I don't know what it is, but I know that it's for me I got something up my sleeve I don't know what it is but I know Brooklyn only rains when I'm around It'll take a miracle if I ever make it out For now I'm just a passenger on this monorail of doubt Brooklyn only rains when I'm around Brooklyn only rains when I'm around Brooklyn only rains
5.
Stranger 03:12
All that I could give you Is half a coffee and my whole body (it makes sense in my head) All that I could give you Are all the songs that I can’t rhyme All the thoughts between my eyes All the love between my thighs I like the way your name looks on my phone You would “would it kill you to leave it alone” I think it might But I would lose to you anytime I don’t wanna be a stranger (I don’t wanna be a stranger) In the far side of your head (In the far side of your head) I just wanna call you later (I just wanna call you later) Wanna get fired up, get fired up, get fired up Get fired up instead I wanna see you In the parking lot of my hometown Kohl’s I’ll hand you something that I stole I don’t care, I’d do it again Drawing circles on your shoulder Don’t you think we’re a little too old for this? In my head I’m still 16, you and me and skinny jeans I don’t wanna be a stranger (I don’t wanna be a stranger) In the far side of your head (In the far side of your head) I just wanna call you later (I just wanna call you later) Wanna get fired up, get fired up, get fired up Get fired up instead So, what now? Where to? I’ve got half a mind for you to choose your move I’ll do anything you want me to Kill my miles, waste your time, Get me lost at the borderline Pretend milestones, different timezones Leaving here feels like coming home
6.
Naturally 03:22
We never talk, we only fight So I leave a little water for the fires you walk at night I got it bad when you’re away So I take the path behind you so you always get your way Chorus 1: Your eyes, burning right through me like a sunrise If I’m just something you forgot, why’d you meet me in the parking lot? And I’d say, “You never were sensible to be this way” You lead me on and just let go, please let go Verse 2: You’re not a god, I’m not a saint But for you I’d be a martyr with your name etched on my grave And now you’re here, here at my show Well, you never really like that I could do it on my own Chorus 2: Your eyes, burning right through me like a sunrise If I’m just something you despise, why’d you love me after all this time? And I’d say “You never were sensible to be this way” You lead me on and just let go God, let me go Bridge: Hold me to the light, see right through my eyes If you don’t want me to fight I won’t waste your time Does it come naturally? Does it come naturally to you?
7.
Deep End 04:23
I’ll be the deep end If you’ll be the weekend I’ll be the steep step into your feelings I know that it hurts feeling your worth So I’ll be the deep end if you’ll be the weekend I’ll be the garnish and you’ll be the harvest And I’ll watch you move around being honest You say “kiss me again but not like a lover” I say “isn’t it nice to have a friend who don’t blow your cover” I’ve got so much to give but I’m saving it I’ve got so much to heal but I’m braving it I’ve got so much to deal and I’m waving it I’ve got so much to feel and I’m hating it I got sick to my stomach on medicine I got sick of myself in Los Angeles I’ve got things that I want and I’m craving it I’ve got so much to give but I’m saving it I’ve got 60 seconds to blow it upx2 I’ve got 50 seconds to blow it up I’ve got 40 seconds to blow it I’ll be your deep end if you’ll be the weekend I’ll be your steep step if you’ll be my sweet sense Of relief and liberation Nowhere an indication of something going wrong I always get it wrong I’ve got 20 seconds to blow it up I’ve got 20 seconds to blow it Relief and liberation, nowhere an indication of something going wrong I always get it wrong
8.
Killjoy 03:57
Touchdown in Suffolk County Joy was an anxious flyer About twenty years before her mama even thought to retire And she never suffered Always had a good roof to live under But she forgot she had it made She cursed each freckle on her face And let a good thing go to waste I didn’t mean to kill Joy She never got to make it I didn’t mean to kill Joy She just got a little taste of freedom I didn’t mean to kill Joy Now she’s playing songs in her local bar, Begging for pennies in a mason jar To see a better day And she’s too damn good for what they pay her Got blood stains on her beat up taylor But she blew them all away But hey, I can’t give an honest review There’s not one thing i know how to do But I know there’s power in 22 I didn’t mean to kill Joy She never got to make it I didn’t mean to kill Joy She just got a little taste of freedom I didn’t mean to kill Joy I’ve never been this far before (I’ve never been this far before) I’ll never be this far behind again (i’ll never be this far behind) I’ve never been this far before (I’ve never been this far before) And I’ll never be this far behind again I didn’t mean to kill Joy She never got to make it I didn’t mean to kill Joy But sometimes I still see her in the mirror I didn’t mean to kill Joy

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Sarah's sophomore album, "The Killjoy," stands as a remarkable testament to her growth as both an artist and an individual. Delving into the depths of her soul, the album narrates the poignant tale of bidding farewell to her younger self, like leaves falling gracefully from a tree to pave the way for new beginnings. With each note played and every word sung, she lays bare her journey of metamorphosis, encouraging her listeners to embrace their own transformations with open arms.

"The Killjoy" is an auditory masterpiece, skillfully blending elements of folk, indie, and alternative rock, all of which Sarah expertly crafts to mirror the depth and complexity of her journey. With evocative lyrics that resonate like poetry and melodies that linger long after the last chord fades, the album's ethereal soundscapes transport listeners to the heart of Sarah's metamorphosis.

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released September 29, 2023

Produced by: Sarah Gross, Gillian Pelkonen
Engineered by: Sarah Gross, Gillian Pelkonen, John Valesio, Bill Hafener
Mixed by: Shane Patterson, Sarah Gross
Mastered by: Gabi Grella

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Sarah Gross New York

Sarah Gross is your neighborly New York Cowboy. She sings about being growing pains, being queer, being chaotic, and likes to rock out pretty hard as long as she is in bed at a reasonable time.

She's been singing around Long Island, NY as long as she could play a barre chord and likes to sing at people on tour! Come to a show!

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